Day 17

Waking up in the morning and actually liking myself... isn't it something?! 

     So, I've stopped drinking on May 3rd (2013), having decided that turning 36 was bad enough; being a 36 year old woman who drinks is pathetic and frightening.
My reasons are many:

1. A six-foot tall Russian girl, tipsy and stumbling at the social gala is not a pretty picture.

2. It is a hard work to damage-proof my relationships and my career while focusing on drinking heavily.

3. I hate the way I look like a "woman that drinks", a telltale I can easily recognize in others.
 
4. I don't want to be that emotionally unbalanced Mother with a perpetual glass of wine in her hand and purple teeth.

5. My brain's functionality have been diminishing due to heavy alcohol use, although I'd like to deny that.

6. Fear that my luck will eventually run out and I will get a DUI, lose my job or become a walking tragic parody of my former Self.

7. I want to stay beautiful, which is the main reason and the inspiration for this blog. However superficial it seems on the surface, it is a simple and practical way to sum up the deep aspects of alcoholic effects on a woman's body, and my enthusiastic attempts to reverse the physical damage I'd done to my body.

     Having consulted a friend who's graduated from Moscow University in Psychology of Alcohol and Chemical Dependency over a few late-night teas in my flat, I am relieved to say that the damage can be undone indeed. Yet it requires a complete commitment to abstinence and a lot of hard psychological and pharmaceutical work every day.  For the next 30 days. For the rest of my life.

    The good news is that I get to regain my lovely personality, my looks, my gorgeous body and enter the stage of happiness and bliss.  I'll be able to deal with everyday issues without having to "have a drink", I will live a life without constant fear and regret and will be able to remember everything I did the night before.
I say -  Where do I sign?